“She’s dead and I feel no sorrow in my heart. My eyes can shed no tears, and yet I’m at peace. I’m not evil, I’m human.”
“With the placing of her casket in the ground, my healing can begin.”
I would suggest your healing as already begun.
Sharing your heart so honestly and openly is a sign of strength to be honoured and respected. It’s an invitation for others to be honest and true to themselves, acknowledging that people have hurt them without shame or embarrassment.